Christmas

Hi everyone-I'm kinda over Christmas and can't wait til everything is over with. I think it's because I associate it w/death of loved ones. My dad died 12/24/1977. It was hard. Then the past few years I've had so many deaths. some cousins, my brother-in-law ...all around Christmas time. I bought some presents for my daughter, my step grandkids, and mother-in-law. Everyone else in the family said to not exchange gifts this year. Really it should be a day-DAY-to think about what Christmas really is-Jesus' birthday. I'm going to attend a Christmas Eve service w/my sister tomorrow night. I've never attended one before.It's always been so busy w/me cooking, wrapping, shopping. I think I'll like just worshipping and praying. I feel like those that have passed before us should be here but maybe they are. My sister turned me on to James Van Praagh's website. I thought it was interesting. He is one of the creators of Ghost Whisperer-which I am fascinated by because sometimes I feel like that stuff happens w/me. Dreams of John and my mom in which they are really talking to me are intense. The holidays make me realize that you make life what you want it to be and we can enjoy real things like being w/family/friends or spend life on things that won't matter in the long run. Merry Christmas everyone.