memories and decisions

Hi everyone,
Thanks to those Facebook friends of mine who have been following me. I'm sorry I don't write like I should but I'm worn out by the time I get home from a full day of teaching. Today I had to go to Walgreen's to pick up my medicine. I realized when I was there that it was just like the day when I got the call from my daughter saying that his roommate couldn't wake him up. It was a Thursday around 5:30-6:00 and I was paying for my blood pressure medicine just like that dismal night a few weeks and 2 years ago. I started crying on the way home. I guess that's just the way it will be. When memories start flooding back.
I was disappointed also that my daughter said she might withdraw from college (the surgical tech. program). I want her to find her way and decide what she wants to do with her life. I know she's not 20 yet and it's hard to get started with what you're going to do for the rest of your life, but what will happen to her if something happens to me? Her father's passed away, her brother's gone, and only 1 grandparent left and he's in his 70's. I need to start praying again. I've been so disillusioned and have kinda given up but I think that praying will be all that I can do with so much out of my control.